Sunday August 02, 2015
These days, each time I come back to tumblr to do one of these journal update things on my life, I go, “long time no see again.” But it feels kind of different this time, I guess because it feels like it’s been an even longer time, because I really gave up on using tumblr again.
I’m scrolling through my dashboard, and I do miss it a bit. It looks like a lot of people I follow are gone too. I never had much followers on here, I didn’t see yet, but if I had to guess I feel like I have… ten followers left. Oh. No, some more, but still lol. I think my dash is still a lot of k-pop. I barely have an interest in k-pop these days. I still listen to it here and there and attempt to listen to the new songs, but I don’t really follow it any more.
I never post on any social media these days really. I also miss being active on instagram. I still always take random ass pictures, and never post them any where.
I’m always thinking about making a new tumblr, but I mean, I already don’t pay attention to this one. Then I’m always thinking about deleting this account. If I had known, I should’ve put a lock thingy on this account to keep it private. These “journal” rambling entry type of things were always extremely personal. But I guess they were also at a time where I felt extremely lonely, and so I didn’t care if it got seen by a few people. It’s like I wanted to get my thoughts out there to someone, even if no one actually read them, I guess it kind of felt like it. *shrug* Part of me wants to keep them, but completely to myself now. I made way too many, on both this account and the old account.
But it also doesn’t sound like a bad idea to just read over them, like have one last look at it, and then delete them. Part of letting go of the past y’know. Typing up these ramblings of mine, I always thought to myself, “I’m going to look back at these one day…. and shake my head.” I tagged them under that same silly tag just to do that one day. So perhaps this it. It is that day… or.. Days. Like I said, I made them at a time where I was extremely lonely, and I was rambling during times that I was going through things that are like… why should I remember them now? Especially the ones about my ex. Hell, a majority of my sad ramblings were about my dumb ex. I’m over it now and already got rid of everything else. I don’t really need a bunch of long ass text posts to remind me how sad and stupid I was at the time since I already acknowledge it and all.
I of course, considered just deleting the whole entire blog(s), but uh… I want to keep everything else within them….. I’ll figure it out.
I’m already like, grinning and shaking my head thinking about my old ramblings. The feeling of saying goodbye and letting go of something like this is weird to me. Bittersweet? I don’t know.
I know I usually put these personal text posts of mine in a “read more”. but uh. If there just so happens to be someone that still pays attention to this. Then here I am. This is what I’m doing with my tumblr right now. Hello. Hope you’re doing okay.
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